I will survive

Every time I get into the car a song comes on that reminds me of you. But today it was the TV that caught me off guard. 'I Will Survive' came on and I DID NOT CRY!! Do you hear me Jenny!! I did not cry! I just smiled and sang along. Granted it helped that it was 'Raising Hope' and it was hilarious as always, but still. I hope this is my turning point to acceptance. I know I will have my moments that I will be overwhelmed with emotions; however, with everyday, I grow stronger and you grow stronger within me. I have stopped asking for signs from you, but instead I am [finally] talking to God again. I have not dreamed of you. I don't think I am ready yet and my mind knows that. Just like our daily conversations, I am rambling, so I will end this entry with the words to our all time favorite, call each other when its on, girl power anthem...I WIll SURVIVE....

At first, I was afraid, I was petrified Kept thinking, I could never live without you by my side But then I spent so many nights thinking, how you did me wrong And I grew strong and I learned how to get along And so you're back from outer space I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face I should have changed that stupid lock I should have made you leave your key If I'd known for just one second you'd be back to bother me Go on now, go, walk out the door, just turn around now 'Cause you're not welcome anymore Weren't you the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye? Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh, no, not I, I will survive Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give And I'll survive, I will survive, hey, hey It took all the strength I had not to fall apart Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart And I spent, oh, so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry but now I hold my head up high And you see me, somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free But now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me Go on now, go, walk out the door, just turn around now 'Cause you're not welcome anymore Weren't you the one, who tried to break me with goodbye Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh, no, not I, I will survive Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give And I'll survive, I will survive, oh Go on now, go, walk out the door, just turn around now 'Cause you're not welcome anymore Weren't you the one, who tried to break me with goodbye Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh, no, not I, I will survive Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give And I'll survive, I will survive, I will survive GLORIA GAYNOR - I WILL SURVIVE LYRICS

I love you, I miss you!