Choices

Today is election day. It is the day we choose to vote, have a say, and be passionate about where we are hopefully going in our country. It represents not only who we are but, what we want. I want to live in a retirement community, play old people bingo, shuffleboard, travel, go to the Grand Canyon, and laugh until I cry. Those were some of the things we were hoping to do. But somewhere in the mix of life, love and kids, it got pushed aside. I cannot play 'shoulda, woulda, coulda' it does not help. It does not change the choices that were made, the missed opportunities, or the fact that you are gone. Everyone has life choices to make, I pray everyday that I am making the right ones, for those that I love. I pray they know I love them, I pray I will click my camera at the right time, I pray that the passion I feel for my job keeps the money coming in so I will not have to give it up and work in a building, I pray I do not end up needing a crutch to get through the day, I pray my kids will only need a little bit of therapy when they are adults, I pray that I learn to cope with your loss, I pray. My choice, I pray. I wish you still had a choice. I love you! I miss you!